GRR.

Will Mother Nature please hit menopause so we can have a hot flash!? I'm SO tired of all this snow! Yesterday was my birthday and of course it decided to snow like 10 feet. So we were snowed in and had to order pizza.
But tomorrow it's out to eat at Olive Garden with the girls =]. Can't wait for some me time away from my brat. I love him to death, but sometimes I need a break away, or I'll reach that 'death' sooner than later! lol
Other than all the snow, I had a good birthday. Not bad for turning the big 2-0. Next year will be a lot funner ;]. 21!!!!

And thank you mom for dedicating your post to me yesterday! Check it out: sixfeetunderblog.com

THE BUG GETS AROUND.

Sorry i haven't written in awhile. I've been really busy with my crabby kid. Double ear infections were going around the daycare and Zach caught it. But luckly, he only has a single ear infection. (I'd hate to see how he'd act with a double- YIKES!) He's been on his medication, so things are starting to go back to normal. We're finally back to getting full nights of sleep. YES! I love my sleep, Idk how I'll ever do it with two around!
Which brings me to my next subject. I had my anual womens doctor apointment. Well after all the drama happened with the ex, my mom wanted me to get a pregnancy test done and get a note saying I'm not pregnant, so I could tell my know-it-all step-dad he was wrong. Because of course, he always believes the enemy. Well the doctors come back in the room, and I'm expecting and reaching out for the 'Jessica is not pregnant' note, She says 'Your test came back positive, looks like your about 11 weeks. We're gonna check the heart beat to make sure everything is okay.' WHAT?!?!?! After my 20 second long heart attack, I laid back with an 'okay'. She sat there for a minute trying to find the baby with that cold little machine, and despite my doubts that i was actually pregnant...there it was...that tiny, fast, little heartbeat. CRAP! A million things ran through my head: What's my mom gonna say?, How the heck am I gonna raise 2 kids?, What's my family gonna think?. They gave me a due date of August 23rd.
I finally drove to my moms. First thing she says to me, "where's my note?" So i just said there, and by the look on my moms face, she knew. Of course she through her freak out moment. But were all okay with it now. And were hoping for the little girl we wanted before. =] When we told my little 5 year old sister how sissy had another baby inside her like Zachary was, she gave me a 'omg' look, and said "You laid down with ANOTHER boy and kissed them?! Thats where babies come from." lol It was the cutest thing.
I've got a couple names picked out. Boy: Bentley Michael. Girl: Either Peyton Ann or Jaelyn Marie.
I'm up for a wild ride. But I'm pretty sure i can handle this! (I think??)

RETURN OF THE EX.

Wewt. Man, has my passed couple of days been VERY eventful. I traveled all the way to Florida and laid on the beach for hours with nothing but peace and quiet.....HA! What i should say is that is what I would have RATHER been doing. Instead my physco ex decided to pop into my life once again. Zacharys dad and I are no longer together and haven't been since I was 8 months pregnant with Zachary. He is a controlling, possesive, mentally abusing...okay lets face it, I could go on all night. Lets just sum it up and say he is just...not a nice guy. Anyways, ever since Zach was born he has wanted to think that he shouldn't have to pay for and help me support our kid. And that he should still get all the benefits I do. And I'm sorry, but to me, that's not fair! I'm working my butt off all week long to raise this kid, while i am gettin $30 a month from him in child support. That $30 doesn't even put a dent into Zach's needs being met. So, once again, Justin thinks that if he ruins my life, he'll get to see Zach. [Did i mention he's not too smart either?] So this time, he decided he was gonna call my mom and tell her all these riduculous lies. He told her that I was pregnant again, that he was living with me, and all this stupid stuff. Number one, I'm 20 and living on my own. I dont have a problem telling my mother I'm pregnant. So i wouldn't have to lie about it. Number two, NEVER would I ever live with Justin. So somewhere in his little plan to ruin my life, he thought by pissing me off and getting my mom involved she was gonna let him see Zachary. HA! Lets see, last time I checked I was Zachary's mom, not my mom. So every decision comes down to me. So it's not to smart to piss me off.
MAN. I'm so glad Zachary got my brains. =]
So. That pretty much sums up my last couple of days. Oh the wonderful life i live. I'm just glad I have Zachary to make it all better. At least that A-hole gave me one good thing.

10 DAyS &+ COUNTiNG.

SO i WAS JUST CHECKiNG OUT THE CALANDER &+ REALiZED iTS ONLy TEN DAyS UNTiL My 20TH BiRTHDAy! =]
iSN'T FUNNy THE OLDER yOU GET, THE LESS yOU LOOK FORWARD TO yOUR BiRTHDAy ANyMORE?? i REMEMBER WHEN i WAS yOUNGER i WAS COUNTiNG MONTHS, DAyS, &+ HOURS UNTiL i WAS My BiRTHDAy. NOW i FORGET ALL ABOUT iT. i'VE REACHED ALMOST ALL OF My BiG BiRTHDAy MiLESTONES. My 1ST BiRTHDAy, My 13 BiRTHDAy WHEN i WAS FiNALLy A TEEN, 14 WHEN i GOT My PERMiT, 16 WHEN i WAS FiNALLy ABLE TO DRiVE, 18 WHEN i WAS FiNALLy AN ADULT. i GOT My 21ST BiRTHDAy TO LOOK FORWARD TO STiLL. AFTER THAT iS JUST OLD AGE. LOL
BUT AT LEAST i HAVE ALL ZACHARy'S BiG BiRTHDAyS TO FOLLOW NOW &+ GET EXCiTED FOR. =] i LOVE WATCHiNG HiM GROW.
EVERyONE KEEPS ASKiNG ME WHAT i'M DOiNG FOR My BiRTHDAy OR WHAT i WANT. i JUST CAN'T THiNK OF THiNGS i WANT ANyMORE. LOL SO i TOLD EVERyONE MONEy. &+ WERE GONNA TRy &+ DO A BOWLiNG GET TOGETHER. GETTiNG OLD SUCKS. LOL

ZACH'S NEW SLEEP SCHEDULE.

Hi THERE!
MAN HAS TODAy BEEN SOOO DRUG OUT. ZACH HAS GOTTEN iNTO THE NEW HABBiT OF GETTiN UP AT 4 iN THE MORNiNG AFTER NOT GOiNG TO BED TiL MiDNiGHT &+ THROWiNG A FiT! i DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET HiM OUT OF THiS HABBiT, BUT i HOPE HE FiNDS A WAy. BECAUSE THiS iS DRAiNiNG ME! i'M THiNKiNG My LiTTLE STiNKER MAy HAVE ANOTHER TOOTH COMiNG iN. HE'S BEEN VERy CRANKy LATELy.
THESE ARE THE TiMES i WiSH HiS FATHER WAS A HALF WAy DECENT GUy &+ AROUND FOR ZACHARy. i WOULD SO BE SENDiNG ZACH HiS WAy! [LOL]
SO ANyWAyS. NOW i'M JUST ENDiNG My DAy SiTTiNG AT My MOMS HOUSE. WAiTiNG FOR My SAVOR TO ARRiVE. [My iCED COFFEE, i'M TOTALLy OBSESSED. HA HA] THEN WE ARE HEADiNG HOME &+ i PRAy ONCE AGAiN THAT ZACH WiLL GET TO BED EARLy &+ PERHAPS SLEEP iN. HA! THAT WAS THE FUNNiEST THiNG i HEARD ALL NiGHT. i CRACK My SELF UP! [LOL]
WELL, MY COFFEE iS ALMOST HERE.
UNTiL TOMORROW. HAVE A GOOD NiTE. =]

.*.ABOUT THiS MOMMy.*.

HEy THERE!

My NAME iS JESSiCA. BUT i GO By JESS OR JESSiE. i'M ALMOST 20 yEARS OLD. i'M FROM A PRETTy SMALL CiTy CALLED DAVENPORT, iOWA. WHEN PEOPLE HEAR 'iOWA' THEy AUTOMATiCALy THiNK OF A BORiNG TOWN SURROUNDED By CORN. BUT THAT'S NOT TRUE [LOL]. WE HAVE OUR SMALL LiTTLE CiTy. iT'S STiLL REALLy BORiNG HERE THOUGH. SO THEy GOT THAT PART RiGHT.

<--i HAVE A LiTTLE BOy NAMED ZACHARy SCOTT. HE JUST TURNED A yEAR ON SEPT 6TH. HE'S My PRiDE &+ JOy=]. HE iS DEFiNATLy SOMETHiNG ELSE. HE HAS A GREAT LiTTLE PERSONALiTy. AND HE DEFiNATLy KEEPS ME ON My TOES. BUT i LOVE HiM TO DEATH. i DON'T KNOW WHERE i WOULD BE WiTHOUT HiM. A LOT OF PEOPLE SAy yOU RUiN yOUR LiFE WHEN yOU HAVE A CHiLD SO yOUNG. iT WAS THE OPPOSiTE FOR ME. HE CHANGED My LiFE FOR THE BETTER &+ MADE ME GET ON THE RiGHT TRACK. i CAN'T SAy THE SAME FOR HiS FATHER THOUGH, HE'S A P.O.S. AND NOT iN HiS LiFE.


i DON'T DO MUCH FOR FUN. i LiVE THE NORMAL LiFE OF A yOUNG MOM. WORKiNG &+ TAKiNG CARE OF My LiTTLE ONE. TRyiNG TO GET My SCHOOLiNG STARTED AND GET My LiFE TOGETHER SO i CAN GET My SUCESSFUL MARiNE BiOLOGy CAREER GOiNG. =] i LOVE OCEAN ANiMALS. [MOM DOESN'T WANT ME TO BECOME ONE, BECAUSE THAT MEANS i'M MOViNG AWAy] OUR FAMiLy iS VERy CLOSE AND WE DON'T GO A DAy WiTHOUT TALKiNG. i DON'T HAVE TOO MANy CLOSE FRiENDS. THAT COMES WiTH BEiNG A yOUNG MOM. SO My FAMiLy iS THE CLOSEST THiNG i HAVE TO CLOSE FRiENDS.

i NEEDED SOMETHiNG TO DO iN My SPARE TiME WHEN ZACHARy iS SLEEPiNG &+ NOT CAUSiNG TROUBLE OR SETTiNG THE APARTMENT ON FiRE! [LOL] SO i CREATED THiS BLOG. MAyBE i CAN EVEN MAKE A FEW FRiENDS? =]